Year of You: Week One (Embracing the Cyclical Being) Reflections

I have committed to taking myself through each week of the year of you and sharing my journey along the way.

How fitting that I would experience such a clear depiction of the success-failure cycle with this launch? 

While having no one sign up for this program during it's first launch is a failure, I don't say that with a tone of pity, judgement, or resentment.

I'm actually REALLY excited to transmute this business failure into a personal growth success. When it comes time to share this program again, I'll be able to share what it was truly like to go through week by week. I'm listening to my own podcast recordings, meditations, doing the journal prompts and self-care work. I'm doing it all. 

My Week One Experience

As I observed the gentleness with which the seasons were changing, I wondered if I too could be gentle with myself as my inner seasons went through it's own cycle. 
Choosing to go into this week with compassion made all the difference. Right away, I had to remind myself that I wasn't just experiencing one cycle, I was experiencing countless internal and external cycles simultaneously.  

"Bring me the experiences that will bring me closer to myself" was the affirmation that I felt drawn to return to throughout the week. This showed up for me in so many ways. There are often times in life where I put way too much responsibility on myself and take things way too seriously.  I can lose sight of the pureness of being and get caught up in things that aren't even mine to be getting caught up in. 

One experience that brought me closer to myself was a simple warm afternoon on my back porch. I made a *perfect* iced coffee, had my Fall playlist music playing through my speakers, and my dog happily napping in the sun next to me. I let myself be present with the good. I didn't rush through it or write it off as insignificant. I got to become closer to the part of myself that knows that it is okay for things to be good and simple. 

Another experience came through my journaling about the different cycles I am impacted by and reflected on the menstrual cycle and fertility. As someone who has struggled with PCOS and infertility, this can be an intense cycle for me to sit with. I viewed this cycle through the lens of my inner child and she came through with some of the most heart-wrenching questions that I have ever asked myself. She inspired me to include some of these questions in the shadow work course where I can hold people through answering them, so they'll stay between me and her for now.

Week One Takeaway 

The more that I lean into trusting the cycles that we experience as humans, as spiritual beings, and in nature- the more I trust myself. I'm not nearly as afraid of failing because I completely trust that there is no way that I can fail forever.